Bad day

"Don't let a bad day make you think that you have a bad life"

Life have been so hard on me ytd n today. I don't know what I did to deserve all these shits seriously.... I've been a bad person I know, but haven't karma hit me already???

Life is so unfair I swear. But I'm stronger now. Better.

Neeways, Happy Birthday to my awesome n annoying lil bro xx :-)

Ruined

I hate it when people get you all hyped up for something, you got so excited about it.

And the next minute it's gone. Plans are gone. I hate this. People need to stop screwing my life up. AIN'T MY LIFE BAD ENOUGH ALREADY???

Please pls priest

I want a getaway to Genting pleaseeee? :-(

I hope C's mom will not be afraid to be home alone n let her go :<

Leaving X.

Doesn't it sucks when someone dear to you is leaving, you tried to make him/her to stay but to no avail?

She's my poly bestfriend, i cherish her alot. But she want to leave this course because:

1. She doesn't like maritime industry
2. She prefer early childhood education

She's gonna pursue her passion n live her dream, i should be happy for her shouldn't i?

 

But can't i be selfish this time and make her stay? I hate being alone. I really hate it.

Bad dream

"Memories of you now seems like a bad dream"

I've been dreaming alot lately, I'm glad that most of them are happy ones.

Are my dreams trying to tell me something? Is it coming true? I hope, I really hope it will come true this time X.

Exhausted

Hi world, it's Monday again n I'm already so so so worned out.

I really detest cbnaing, and I don't pretend to like any of his shits. I don't care if I'm an intern n you're a general manager, you jolly well don't stick your dirty eyes on me all the time n I'll show you a little more respect. Fucker.

Buddy

31 December 2011

2 March 2012. Farewell dinner with sisterssss before jx, zg n him leaves for China for 1 month.

Everyone wish they have a bestfriend of an opposite sex, just bestfriends, no special feelings other than their love as a bestfriend.

I'm so proud that i have one, a bestfriend who is still willing to stay by my side no matter how many pms i have, no matter how messed up i am, no matter how many times we quarrel, no matter how many times i've scolded him bitch and fucker, no matter what.

I remember calling him up in the middle of the night when i was still with A. Crying n complaining about him being close/liking other girls. It was pretty much worst after the breakup. He even met me n i poured my heart out to him. Frankly this breakup wasn't easy for me, i had a really hard time moving on while A doesn't seem to have any problem with that.

I'm such a messed up person. I wouldn't like me if i were in my friends shoes. That's why i'm so thankful for all the great people i have around me, especially you, buddy. Thank you for being such a good buddy and i'm sorry for being so mean to you all the time.

I love you, my bestest buddy :')

Wide awake

"I was dreaming for so long"

Pretty much my fav song now. I can always relate myself to her songs i dont know why, she's my idol :')

Stronger

Thank God i found the good in goodbye.

It's all the goodbyes that made me stronger. I'm thankful for the people who stayed, and for you, i hope you're happier now xx.

Such a hectic yet mundane week for me. Work, home, sleep: cycle repeats. Friday was a busy one cos ms raudha is not around i find myself lost n afraid. I'm dealing with real suppliers alone n what if i made some commercial mistake without realizing it? :-( Monday will also be without her, i need to be btr at purchasing man........

I have to many plans in mind. Picnic, genting, shopping, stayover, cycling, trip to jb, so many..... It's hard when everyone got their own plans and i don't blame them for that. This is life i guess haha, maybe when i get a boyffie i will strike all these off my list. 

I need someone here with me so badly now actually. It sucks when you realize you've been single for like 8months......... I'm gna party till i drop when i hit 18. 

Stay strong X

Life is so unpredictable....


My polymate, E just lost his dad 2 days ago and was buried yesterday. Coincidentally it is actually father's day.

I realize life is so unpredictable and we should never take things for granted. We should be thankful for being able to wake up every morning when we open our eyes, be grateful that we're breathing.

I love my family so much :') xoxo

Monday, again

"You're like Monday, everyone hates you"

My feelings now is totally meh.............. It's monday again tomorrow why do you come so fast!!!! :-( It's quite an enjoyable weekend, the best one ever since my internship started.

Friday > Steamboat with my fav clique, Saturday > Went JB, scape* and had prata for supper at Bukit Timah with my family omg such a great day i swear.

Today > HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO MY BEST DADDY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH :')
We got him a New Balance polo tee hehe hope he like it!!!!

And back to the 5 days of torture yet again tomorrow..........

xx.

Running man

Finally watching running man after not watching it for like 5months? Gosh........ It's been so long.

Time like this

Good mor-night world!

Had dinner with my fav clique ytd at K's place. Time like this makes me feel so contented and happy :-)

Bigfour is finally back together :')

K! :-)

xx! :-)

Le sister! :-)

Best bro! :-)

JY! :-)

LAOBAN ♥.♥

YOLO

"Don't ever use YOLO as a reason for you to mess your life up"


I used to be ruining and messing my life up cos i thought: YOLO, if i don't do it now, when? Then i realize it doesn't apply to everything in life.

You only live once: If you live it well, once is enough.

I know people around me always thought i've changed (or maybe till now some of them still think i've changed). I didn't change, i just become more of who i really am. I just don't pretend to like any of your bullshits anymore. I just don't do the things you'd ALWAYS expect me to do for you. I just don't be kind to people who're mean to me. I just learnt to stand up for myself cos if i don't, who would? And because i am like this now, it means i'm a bad person? 


I don't know. But i just gave up trying to please everyone, making everyone like me. I can't please everyone, i'm just...... me.

One thing to be sure of, i'll love myself more from this moment while i'm sitting here typing this. I'll party like a rock star, be good to my family, study hard, earn big bucks, get married with the man i love, be healthy and kick all those asses who are mean to me before. WATCH ME, this time i'll prove all of you wrong :-)

TGIF

Never fails to have this TGIF feel ever since I started my internship.

Rn I'm stoning at my place, waiting for lunch time to come. I'm becoming a rocker soon (if-you-know-what-I-mean)

xx.

Mundane

Life's been pretty mundane for the past 3 months with just work work work n work. It's exactly 3 months n 1 week before my internship ends.

Meeting my fav clique for steamboat dinner tmrw at k's. I miss them so much :')

xx.

Dreams X

My dream was a mess last night, I don't even know what's happening inside. People who don't even know each other exist were taking to each other. It kept me wondering if there is any purpose/reason for what we dream of.

Hey, Happy Birthday

"You can't choose what stays and what fades away"

Maybe we both just moved on. You gave me so much to remember. All the memories, arguments, jealously, everything.
I avoid all your friends, places we used to go and things we used to do together. I hate to admit but yes, i still miss you, the old you.

But i miss the old me more.

Happy 18th Birthday, you. X 

Reminisce

Just some memories i want to always (forever) remember :-)

Bangkok, 11-14 April 2012. My bro didn't join us as he went Beijing for school trip.

Miss 3 days of intern for this trip but it's totally worth it :-)

With Dad n Mom at the street stalls outside Big C (Bangkok)

With my sister! 

They're having some movie premire n told us to watch it. Thai r so kind, i rlly love them :-)

Songkran Festival (Thailand's new year)

It was an coincidence but i really enjoyed myself, revived my childhood ^^

 They have this giant screen inside Central world (Bangkok) and your photos will be uploaded inside it!

 Giant Hello Kitty inside Central world. 

xxx

Impromptu stayover at Cynthia's (my poly bestfriend) house :-)

People who r close with me would be aware that i'm afraid of dogs, Cynthia's puppy was the 1st ever dog that i'm unafraid n made friend with!

Day out with bigfour but C & K left early :-(

xxx

I guess my life had been pretty awesome, i'm more than grateful n thankful for my family and friends who're always there for me :-)

I really love all of you xoxo

Back on track

Hello world, it has been so long since i last blogged. Title says it all, i'm back on track.

Life's been a chore with internship. I'm halfway through this 6 months of shit already. I'm back to being friends with her and it feels good now that everything is somehow settled. I've broke off with him after 9-10months together. I must admit 2011 has been pretty amazing with him in my life, but its time for me to move on as he had started a brand new relationship with a new girl.

I guess that's life for me and i've grown to a better person.
Thank you anyway xx