Many time i find my nose turning "sour" and eyes filled with tears. I can't recall when was the last time i felt happy genuinely without having to fool people around me that i am happy. This sadness is taking over control of my life. I numb myself by doing things i used to do. It felt great to be partying again after months of not doing so, i can't deny that it was fun... But when i get sober i realize how dumb it is. Why am i bringing harm to my own health all over again. What fun do guys actually get from touching/grinding other girls whom they know nothing about? What fun do girls get from getting touched almost everywhere of their own body? But who am i to judge anyway? Everyone is fighting their own battle, it doesn't kill to be nice. So, be nice.
Thank goodness for the friends around, making sure c and me is safe from the hands of the strangers.
I wish i can disappear.
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