Dear John

"Why didn't you call? Why didn't you call me? I mean, did i not deserve anymore explanation than that letter? You could have called me, couldn't you have given me some sort of chance to like change your mind? Don't you think you owe me that?"

"Because just hearing your voice, I would've changed my mind. Is that what you want to hear John? Is that what you came all this way to hear from me? You think it was tough out there? And what, you think it was easy for me without you? You thought that every single day wasn't a god damn marathon of my life without you?"
-Dear John

What i miss the most

I've been thinking alot today and i think it is really a bad idea for me to stay home and have so many time in hand that i would start thinking. In fact way too much. I have never believed in the whole "i love you" thing because i don't believe it exist. Maybe in fairytales yes, but in real life? I doubt so. It's true that we always learn things the hard way, we don't know how to appreciate the things in life till we finally lose it. Now that i think back, i feel blessed. At least there would be a text left by Nic the night before for me to read when i wake up in the morning, at least there would be someone who would be there to accompany me to fulfil every craving i have, at least there would be someone to walk me home because he wants me to get home safely.

At least he would still be the one who will love me and tell me that i'm flawless even though i'm a complete mess. And he makes me want to become a person because of him.

Can't nobody do it like you

Finally having some 'me' time after having a hectic monday tuesday wednesday this week phew.

Practical training for 200 minutes yesterday from 9.20 to 11am then 11.30 to 1.10pm. I really don't know what i was thinking when i booked my practical training back then but i must admit it was good to be on the wheels driving again after so long :) Just booked another 6 lessons i hope i can get my license asap!!! :(

Anyway after my training ended at 1.10pm yesterday i trained over to town to meet jx and karen for lunch and movie! Went to bought the movie tickets first, watched 8-8-91. Overall i don't think it's worth my 7 bucks LOL. All the scary scenes was pretty much predictable and the movie like keep jumping from this scene to another make me so confused. Or is it that i've watched way too many horror movies that i can't be scared anymore? Wahahahahahaha.

Went for lunch at TCC after buying the movie tickets because i was starving!!!! Imagine waking up at 8.16am and rushing for driving training that lasted for 200 minutes with just half cup of milk..... 

I'm such a heroine.

Smoked salmon sandwich x ham & cheese sandwich x chicken and mushroom spaghetti

I think the spaghetti i ordered is super nice!!!! Not too creamy just nice to my liking :) 

Walked around town before headed back to cine to watch the movie as it was 5.05pm one. Movie ended at around 6.30 and we went to coffee bean for some snack as we were still feeling full from our brunch at tcc earlier in the afternoon.

Double chocolate ice blended x red velvet cake.

Don't really like the double chocolate ice blended because the coffee kind of covered the taste of the chocolate? Plus the coffee was a tad too strong + bitter :( Red velvet cake was a little too dry too but my love for red velvet cake never dies!!!!!

Had heart-to-heart talk with them till around 10pm before we left town for home. Love spending time with them feeling so relaxed and i can tell them how i feel without getting judged. And they can always make me laugh like an idiot in town and we don't even care about how people look at us. Bestfriends :)

Right now i'm craving for cheesecake............. And yay i'm meeting my 12 years bestest bestfriend later on for dinner. Been quite sometime since i last met her :)

Something sweet

Aloha i've decided to upload all the photos from my phone and blog about them today since i've got the time now. Here it goes!

Giant fish tank!!!!

Super pretty jellyfish. They look like mermaid don't they? :)

I look like i just woke up in this photo oh why.....

Attempt to take photo with the sharks swimming in the tank behind us (FAILED)

Finally went to the sea aquarium after more than 1 week of waiting. And the boy is finally back in sg for good woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so happy that i can finally see him and the jellyfishes :p

I like this photo alot! We look so happy hehe :)

Went swee choon for dinner at around 9pm+. We ate till 11.30pm. Woah i don't know we manage to eat for so long but i really love spending time with him. We can talk about anything and everything and he will always force me to eat things i don't like >:( (Eg. forcing me to eat RAW beef, gingko, some weird veggie that apparently was supposed to be meant for decoration purpose only FML)

He sent me home after that. Wahaha i love him so much!!!

Anyway it was jb foodie + shopping trip with big4 today! 

Met them 11am at kranji and bus to jb. Had our brunch at Arashi! The food there was pretty ok? I love their terrpanyaki sauce super yumzzzz.

Cabbed over to KSL city after that!

We ate this hehehe super love. Chocolate pretzel!!!!

And you know what will happen when you eat these???

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BLACK LIPS BLACK TEETH HAHAHAHA

We had churros too! Super yummy wahahaha.

Lastly a photo of my pretty nails now. Can't stop staring at them because they are soooo pretty :):):)

Driving lesson tmrw argh i rly dread it so much. 9.20-11am and then 11.30-1.30. What am i doing to myself? Why did i book 2 consecutive lessons together on the same day............... :(

Your love is my drug

Old but nice as usual : )

As i am typing this nic have already landed in sg (FINALLY) and would be on his way home now. His phone ran out of battery so all i can do now is wait for him to whatsapp me. Can't wait can't wait can't wait!

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Anyway i was having this short htht with buddy over the phone yesterday. It kind of got me thinking the whole night while i was lying on bed. No matter what we do we will get judged but we shouldn't judge someone just because they sin differently from us right? 

And what got me thinking the most of all is that: why do people judge me from what they see or worst, from what they hear about me from other people? I'm not trying to say that i'm a saint (because i'm obviously not) but i don't think i'm a bad person either...

But it's okay because i also realize that there are still many people around me that loves me for who i am. And for this i feel so blessed and thankful. So thankful for the people who never once left even though i messed up so many times. Thank you X.

You

Loving this stay home Saturday and this 'me' time after a pretty hectic week. 

I realize it's true that i don't usually fall for someone but when i do, i fall hard. It scares me at how important nic is to me right now because it is really the 1st time i actually love someone this much. I put his feelings before mine and i'm even willing to throw my ego and pride aside for him. I don't throw tantrums at him unlike how i would when i was with ant back then. He make me feel so blessed i don't know what else can i do except to love him more each day. And the best thing is he makes me smile even just at the thought of him. I really hope that we will stay like this forever.

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And on a side note, i just booked all my practical training for driving. Looks like i'm gonna be heading down to bbdc quite frequently this holiday. I hope i can get my license asap because practical training feels like a chore to me now :( 

Two is better than one

I'm finally back from the 3D2N chalet with the clique!

We plan to go for mookata (thai steamboat) for lunch on wednesday before heading to the chalet. But to our disappointment they only have mookata at night so we have got no choice but to make do with the normal meals :(

Looking pale and tired with C wahahahaha

Our lunch.

Green curry x sweet n' sour fish x tom yum x basil chicken x thai ice milk tea

Although we were disappointed because we can't have mookata but this was enough to keep the disappointment away as it was pretty good and the price was affordable :)

After lunch we realize we still have around 3/4hours to spare before meeting with the rest of clique at downtown east. So we decided to head over to town (after contemplating for a long time because we were super under-dressed as we were carrying backpacks and wear slippers wahaha) to get zg's super duper belated birthday present and also to try royal pudding at Paris Baguette! 

Royal pudding (which practically EVERYONE was raving about) along with apple x strawberry x egg x cheese tarts.

 I love the egg tart most! The egg yolk taste so smooth and good although it sound and looks so normal as compared to the other 3 tarts we had. I think the royal pudding is kind of overpriced as it is $4 per bottle and i don't think i will give it another try unless it's free/cheaper.

Why do i look so pale and sick in all the photos ah.....  :(

The cap we got for zg as his super duper belated birthday present! 

We each wore it before the real owner even gets to see it so the virgin wear for this cap is officially gone :p And wondering why our hands is touching our face? I was having this pretty obvious pimple on my cheek so i forced them to pose this way with me yay!

Finally at pasir ris. Jx said i look good in this photo but i still think i look pale and sick idky :(

Went to the chalet, napped a little, went out for dinner, bathed, watched tv and headed over to zouk for tgiw! PARTYYYYY!!!!!

Drinks for the night which got us pretty high but NOT drunk :)

Bubblegum x apple x sour plum shots x kiss of death

I was told that kiss of death tasted good so we gave it a try and WE REGRETTED LIKE ALOT ALOT ALOT. It tasted so bad and i almost puked while trying to finish it up ugh damn disgusting. Apple shots was bad too eew. Nonetheless my love or bubblegum shots never goes away, my fav shot!

I'm sorry but i just have to do this. 

*takes photo with the drinks*

I swear guys are bad photographers. This was the 3rd or 4th photo they took and all of us still look like shit zzzz.

We were kind of high by then..............

Partied hard but not as hard as the time at zirca. But it was a pretty good night and i was proud that i managed to stay sober throughout!!!! First time in my life i didn't get drunk after drinking. And i must admit that it feels good + it was super funny to see people getting drunk doing stupid things :p Puking, making out, dancing and everyone was so happy. Exactly the reason why i love club, they make us all happy people even though it is just for that few hours but it was good enough :)

The four of us literally went crazy, we keep dancing and laughing but i really enjoyed myself. Some despo guys came and thank god the guys is always on standby to help us. Even treated me sour plum shot and house pour wahaha my polymates treats me well ^^ Anyway the reason i keep forcing myself to not lose my sane is because we were going for swee choon after zouk!!!!!! Left zouk at 4am and cabbed over for our supper + breakfast.

Doesn't look appealing at all......... Btw i didn't take this photo ah.  

The pumpkin custard bun tasted SOOOOO bad it felt like i was eating dough. I love the normal custard bun, char siew bao and har gao (prawn dumpling)!!!! So yummy!!!!!!

Finished up and cabbed back to chalet. Washed up and crashed at 6am. Was mad tired because i woke up at 8am that morning and survived with zero nap. Hero iz me.

All of us woke up at 12nn because of a phone call from jiaying. I WNA STAB MY EARS BECAUSE I WAS SO TIRED AND SHE JUST HAVE TO CALL AT THE WRONG TIME. Anyway we woke up and bathed. Slacked around and went to get mixer for drinks and some additional stuff we need for bbq. 

Rainy Thursday afternoon with them in the chalet :)

I was busy bbq-ing and eating that i didn't take ANY photos during it omg. Had so many satay and bacons because they are so good the thought of it makes me drool now! We were perspiring so we went into the chalet for air con and started snapping stupid pictures. That's what girls do right wahahaha

Aliiiiiiien

We damn bitch because we were copying somebody's fav pose HAHAHA

Overly attached girlfriend pose

Dig nose pose

The night ended with us playing indian poker and peach vodka. The poor young boys was super unlucky so they had to drink the most and we teamed up to sabotage jiaying and made her drink alot too (which i regretted). She puked the whole night and keep burping which was so fucking gross. The thought of it makes me wna puke eew. And i patted her back and accompanied her in the toilet while she puke because i felt guilty for sabotaging her HAHAHA FML. Karen was another kind soul who took care of her too :)

Checked out at 12nn and trained over to star vista for itacho sushi!!!!!!!!

Hello my favourite girls :)

Best sushi award goes to them. HANDS DOWN MAN. 

I love their salmon like alotttttt.

So this is how i spent the 3 days. 24hr x 3 days spent with bigfour especially. It was good to have a clique chalet where we can all gather together and catch up since we are all so busy with school. Love spending time with them :)

Anyway buddy and nic came back from tioman yesterday! I was told that they will reach sg at around 7pm but at 5pm i received a call from buddy while we were at ntuc buying the food and I WAS SO HAPPY AND GLAD :') Received a msg from nic too yay i was so happy! But sad thing is as i'm typing this nic is in penang........... He left me in sg AGAIN at 8am this morning :( But i'm glad there's wifi in his hotel room so he's more contactable now as compared to when he was tioman. I miss him like alot alot alot and i hope to fast forward to monday because it is when i can finally see him again :( 

And lastly, today marks the 1st month since we got together. I love him so much already. So thankful to have him in my life, he makes me feel so blessed and never fails to put a smile on my face even only at the thought of him. My February has been fabulous because of him :)