What i miss the most

I've been thinking alot today and i think it is really a bad idea for me to stay home and have so many time in hand that i would start thinking. In fact way too much. I have never believed in the whole "i love you" thing because i don't believe it exist. Maybe in fairytales yes, but in real life? I doubt so. It's true that we always learn things the hard way, we don't know how to appreciate the things in life till we finally lose it. Now that i think back, i feel blessed. At least there would be a text left by Nic the night before for me to read when i wake up in the morning, at least there would be someone who would be there to accompany me to fulfil every craving i have, at least there would be someone to walk me home because he wants me to get home safely.

At least he would still be the one who will love me and tell me that i'm flawless even though i'm a complete mess. And he makes me want to become a person because of him.