I'm a girl with not much words nowadays, i'd rather stay home and do absolutely nothing than to go out and socialize. I know this is bad but i feel better this way. Nic went for an overnight at mbs on friday night with his friends then partied last night (saturday), toughest 2 nights i must say. I do trust he won't misbehave and i finally understood how he felt when i went club 2 times while he's away. Right now i'm just gonna wait by my phone for his message and i hope he didn't get wasted last night. Wake up soon please.
Right now i feel so disappointed.
(edited at 9.17pm)
"I think i'm afraid of being happy because whenever i get too happy something bad always happens."
Is this really how life is gonna treat me? When can i ever be happy and just stay that way? I'm so sick and tired of feeling so happy and then shitty suddenly. I hate this life and i hate myself for losing my temper at the slightest thing today. Yes i am disappointed but i'm not gonna tell you. I'm mad but i know leaving is not gonna solve the problem. If only clubbing doesn't exist our relationship would be perfect. But then again, if it wasn't for club we wouldn't have met. Contradicting bitch is me.
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