Perfect day

No one would be interested in how i lived my life for this 2 days. 

My routine is basically wake up > watch TVD > lunch > watch TVD > tv > dinner > tv > watch TVD.

You think i'm kidding? No i'm not. This is really what i've been doing for this 2 days. And to be honest? I actually enjoy doing this wahahaha. This is how a perfect day should be like!

Minus the fact that Nic is still not back in Singapore.

Anyhooo, i do feel pretty accomplished yet loser-ish at the same time. Accomplished because i finally continued watching TVD after stopping a long time ago. Loser-ish because that's the only thing that i've manage to "accomplish"

Chalet with the clique tomorrow. Finally something to keep me occupied. 

Gonna meet the girls for mookata > go chalet > dinner > zouk > swee choon > sleep

I'll come back with pictures (if i rmb)

I ruv eu holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I miss you

Hello 25th Feb 2013 Monday, i have never dreaded you as much as i did today. I've been trying to keep myself occupied ever since i woke up at 10am and i guess i'm doing well. Nic and buddy left for tioman this morning and hate myself for falling asleep before sending nic a goodbye-i-will-miss-you-everyday-till-you-are-back text. I hope he's having fun right now as i type this, please stay safe and come back to me soon :(

I miss him already.

If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy

2 post within 1 day #achievementunlocked. Wahaha truth is that i'm too free & bored as i've been home the whole of today doing nothing. I'm having this throbbing headache ever since i woke up from my nap at 6pm just now and i swear i feel so miserable i wna chop my head off, i even felt like vomitting :(

Anyway, to counter this sickish feeling, i decided that happy thought is gonna heal me! (mentally) 

In my mind now: Think happy thoughts..... THINK HAPPY THOUGHTS.

I always feel that when you think about happy things you will eventually feel good/better mentally and physically. But the only thing that is keeping me from being happy now is the fact that nic is gonna leave me alone in Singapore for the whole of next week.

Sorry but i just have to do this. NOOOOOOOOOOO!

Back to my post. The whole point is that i just can't think about happy things because nic is gonna leave me!!!!!! I know i sound like:

                                     

But i swear i'm not an overly attached girlfriend priest.

For now let all the happy thoughts flow into my mind, come on come on come on!!!! I already miss him now :( But it's ok because i will be waiting for 4th March as we are gonna go see bloop bloop aka jellyfish yay!!!!!!!!!!! Can't wait for next week to be over already :( :( :(

P.S: This must be one of the very few posts which i put so much effort in -smirk- (probably because i'm too free wahaha) Till then buai buai! 

(edited @ 11.03pm)

I was playing tetris halfway (sorry i know i've got no life today) and suddenly thought about the conversation between nic and me ytd while having our evening-after-dinner stroll at labrador park. 

*While being paparazzi looking at a couple from afar discussing what were they doing* (SORRY I KNOW WE 2 DAMN BITCH BUT WE JUST CAN'T HELP IT WAHAHAHA) 

Me: When is the first time we kissed ah?

Him: Hmm new year countdown -giving me his cute half smile-

Me: What were we doing back then! First time we see each other go club already, end up first kiss also at club. 

Him: You were drunk and i was high what! 2nd time at marina area -laugh-

Me: And we are not together then........ 

Him: Yup. So the first official kiss was at keppel bay park -cute smile again-

Love how he is my bestfriend too. And we were also talking about how thankful for lance aka the ape! Without him nic and me wouldn't have met and know each other :)

My only sunshine

My only sunshine : )

Went on a date with my sunshine today! Met him 12nn at holland v (eventually became 1230 instead because we were both late :p) Went to book the xlb buffet for evening and luckily there's still slots for 5-7pm one! #TGIF! After booking we went for papaya milk cos we were both very curious of how it taste like HAHAHA and apparently it tasted not bad -insert shocked faces- 

Headed to vivo after that and walked around while waiting for 5pm. Talked alot with him and i really love spending time with him!

Xlb buffet @ Crystal Jade!!!!

Around $28/person quite ok right? Unlimited stuff + drinks + xlb. Worth it la. But the thing i hate about them is they always don't wna pick up phone calls when i want to make reservations so angry them!!! I called 50 times ytd and they just don't wna answer my call argh.

Anyway back to my post. I love how the boy is willing to dirty his hands just to peel prawns for me, cook stuff for me especially pig liver cos i love eating that so much. Best boyfriend award!!!!!!!!!!! 

Headed to Labrador Park after dinner. That place is so beautiful and romantic!!! Just that the walk into the park might be a little ulu but i think it's totally worth it la, super love that place! Evening strolls, heart to heart talk and even not talking also feels so comfortable with him around. He really makes me feel like a princess, always doting me and making me feel so lucky and blessed to have him. 

He's my sunshine, bestfriend, bodyguard, teacher, owner and most importantly, my lover. I love him so much <3 

Blessed indeed. 

I forgive you, i forgive me

No shame no blame, cos the damage is done, and i forgive you.

My favorite song for now : )

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Anyway i just got back from my class chalet yesterday. 

Got all these photos from fb from my lecturer who uploaded them!

Getting started for bbq!

Why all the guys so camera shy! Only erwinx coolest -fist bump-

All these guys hog onto the tv to do such things. Soccer......

Wahaha i won $10 in mj from my lecturer!!!!

Not bad huh i unleashed the gambling queen in me that night.

The 3 of us got the 'VIP' seats 

(refer to all the pictures above and you'll realize the 3 of us kept sitting at the same spot cos it's nearest to the bbq pit + sheltered)

We just sat at our VIP seats throughout the whole bbq and talk nonsense and sing song. Living our lives like taitais!!!! What is school? What is exam? Can eat one anot? I even got the guys to toast marshmallow for me and make them call me jiejie even though i'm younger. Love how the guys in my class is always so kind to me :')

Got a ride to Tanah Merah mrt station in the morning after we checked-out, trained all the way home. Took me 1hr+ to reach home oh god i seriously hate long train rides to the maximum especially when i didn't have enough sleep. Anyway i reached home at 11am, bathed, had my lunch, went to bed at 12nn and crashed all the way till 6pm that day. 

I. am. so. drained. and. exhausted.

Had a sisterly time with my sister today!

Went city plaza for the famous ban mian and shopped around before heading to bugis.

Been so long since i last spent time with my sister and it felt like we've really grown up. We used to fight and quarrel over little things but now we are 19 and 22 already. Time really flies :)

I'm so pissed with crystal jade for their stupid service argh. I've been trying to get to them since 2pm today and till now (10.30pm) i still can't get to talk to them I just want to make a freaking reservation for the xlb buffet tmrw whats so hard to pick up a fucking phone call ah?!?! I've called them so many times even i find myself annoying zzz.

Finally gonna see the boy tmrw, he's finally done with exams yay! But the sad thing is he's gna be away for the whole of next week. Talk about distance..... Sigh :(

Dear you

Dear you,

How's life? It has been more than a month since we last talked to each other. And i remember that the last time we talked it wasn't even a conversation, it was just: hi, how are you, bye. I miss those times when we were good friends, you were always there to cheer me up when i'm feeling down and always know when i don't feel ok even if i told you 'i am fine'.

I'm sorry for giving you mixed signals although it has never ever crossed my mind that whatever i did would actually make you think that i like you. I'm sorry for how things turned out eventually, that we can never be as good as before. But i'm glad that i met you and you were once someone who played an important role in my life. For now, i'm very happy to be with the boy and i wouldn't exchange this happiness for anything else in the world.

But remember, no matter how people around me tell me that you might be a bad person, the things you once told me about him might be fake, i still believe that you are not like that. And i honestly hope that you won't prove me otherwise.

Till then,
S.

Everything will be alright if you keep me next to you

Since the holidays have started for me, i'm living my life to the fullest as i can! : )

Met my bkk bitches for lunch and dinner after their exams today! 

Time spent with them is always filled with laughters, loving times like this : )

Lunch at Astons!

Hickory x lemon lime x teriyaki chicken.

Love Astons because their food is always so cheap and there's no service charge or gst!

Our dinner at Everything with fries!

Shared this because we were still feeling full from Astons (we ate astons at 4pm+)

Love their nutella tart so much, so so so good. Especially the side of the tart because it is oreo!!!!!

Indeed looks are deceiving, this doesn't look appealing but taste so fucking good hahaha.

By right i should be at my class chalet now instead of typing this post. But i decided to only go on the 2nd day because it would be tiring to stay for 2 nights... And i think it might be boring? Haha and indeed my decision isn't wrong because the time spent with my bkk bitches is so fun!!! 

Now that the holidays are here i suddenly realize i don't have anything to do except to laze around and go out. But i'm loving this carefree life and i should really enjoy it as much as i can before year 3 starts. Can't imagine going through the whole year of hectic school life filled with endless projects and assignments again.

Perfect

Pictures taken from jx's dslr on friday at nook!

I look so tired in this picture but at the same time i think i look cute.... HAHAHA NO?....

Love them to the moon and back.

I'm so happy the holidays is really here! 2. FUCKING. LONG. MONTHS. SO. FUCKING. HAPPY. I'm quite amazed that i manage to survive through the 2 years in poly, still alive & kicking. This 2 years spent in poly is probably the best schooling years in my life so far. After the 2 months holiday i will be a year 3 student, which marks my final year in SP. And then i don't know what i should do/go next. Is going to UK to study university something i want to do? 

To be honest, growing up sucks. But then again i can't wait to get married with the guy i love and who love me, have kids, grow old, travel around the world, do things i have never dared to try and live my life to the fullest.

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#01. When we were on the cab yesterday we were talking about something regarding driving.

Me: Are you gonna take bike or driving license after the remaining 4 months is up?

Him: Driving.

Me: Why? I thought you will want to take back bike license?

Him: You wouldn't dare to sit if i rode bike right? So i'm gonna take driving license instead. 

#02. On whatsapp after he sent me home last night.

Me: Are you home and done bathing? (and other stuff i forgot what else i talked about)

Him: Yup! My tshirt got your smell i don't think i'm gonna wash it.

#03. A reply i received while i was typing this post.

Him: I just realize your notes is still with me and it has your smell. Do you brush your hair against your notes when you study or something? I'm distracted by the smell while trying to study.

Such replies can actually make my night. Always making me feel so blessed and loved. Oh, and while we were having dinner yesterday at xw hk cafe i was looking at him sitting in the opposite, smiling at me with his usual sweet smile i love and at that moment i felt very very very blessed inside. It is happiness, genuine one. No talking, but i really feel very blessed i'm so thankful to have him in my life.

"I love you because you loved me when i couldn't love myself"

I didn't live through this disguise

Look who finally got her life back!

Met the clique for dinner at Nook after my last paper yesterday! (Friday 17/02/2013)

Someone whom i call my bestfriend : )

Rainbow pancake! 

Rootbeer float *slurpssss*

Our pancake mixes + toppings!

DIY our own pancakes!

Rushed home to bathe and prepare for club!!!!

Been so so so long since i've last clubbed, the last time i club was during the countdown (which was a bad experience)

Anyway! We headed to Attica and Planet Paradise! The people at Attica was pretty ok but i don't like planet paradise because it is filled with ah bengs and ah lians (although there are alot of thais!!!!!!!)

Say hi to my brothers!!!

Too cute.

Love how my classmates are forever so steady wahaha

Conclusion for club: Bad bad bad.

I drink too fast, got drunk too fast and puked too much. Worst drinking/club experience ever. Never felt so miserable before i swear. And i used to laugh at people who puke in clubs, this is karma coming back at me :( 

Woke up at 11am today (yes it is a miracle because i would usually sleep in after clubbing but a text woke me up woohoo). Bathed, prepare and went out to meet the boy for lunch! 

Ajisen Ramen!!! 

Craving satisfied woohoo!

Dinner at Xinwang! It has already become our favorite restaurant already wahaha.

Love their custard bun! My spaghetti was ok just that it is a tad too creamy, his wanton mee was good, honey lemon drink was too sweet, mango pamelo dessert was okay.

Pretty much our first individual photo together hehe.

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And which apparently has 19 likes on instagram. 

I. am. shocked. and. happy. thank. you. everyone. i. love. you. all.

I feel so blessed and happy! Exams are over (hello 2 months long holiday!!!!) and i'm still doing well with the boy yay : ) 

I'm so tired and is on the phone with my stupid buddy as i type this. I will come back to update real soon. For now, bear with all these photos i have, buai buai world!

I wanna scream and shout and let it all out

Happy Chinese New Year! 

Right after the reunion dinner with my family on CNY eve, my dad came up with a crazy idea.....

 Impromptu plan to JB!

Shopped around as the hypermarkets there closes at 1am/ operate 24/7 on cny eve!

Bought donuts back! I love the oreo one. Love oreos all my life!!!

Day 1 of CNY with my bro in the car : )

Charcoal pineapple tart at my uncle's house.

Doesn't look appealling at all......... (looks like rock/shit to me) but it taste so damn gooooood!

There's this charcoal love letter too, taste like normal love letter to me. 

And what's with all the charcoal stuff going on this year ah? hahaha.

Day 2 of CNY : )

I look like i wanna punch someone in the photo on the left (candid)

And finally a decent photo on the right haha!

In the car yet again.

Still loving my purple hair although it is in the midst of fading off :(

Random photo of the clouds after i found out this super cool photo editting app on my phone :p

CNY has been pretty mundane and quiet for my family ever since my grandma passed away in 2011. I'm sure everyone missed her presence. I miss how each family would always cook 1 dish each and bring it to granny's house on the 1st day of cny. I miss how lively granny's house would be, filled with all the laughters. I miss how all of us will take family photo and squeezing because our family is too big to even fit into the screen. I miss how the family used to be so close but now slowly drift off due to certain unhappiness. I miss how my cny used to be. But it is all so different now.... And i honestly can't imagine how cny would be like in the future after my parents' generation is gone, i bet it will be even quieter than now.

To add-on to my (slight) sadness about above, i'm still left with 2 papers for my EST before i'm done with year 2 in poly. Statistic paper this thursday and law on friday. Give me all the strength to go through this last lap of year 2 and let me do well :( :( :(

On a brighter note, i will finally meet the boy this weekend after not seeing him for going 2 weeks due to stupid exams. And there is a huge pimple on my cheek that's finally healing now >:( 

Till the next time i update X.

Raindrops

I find myself typing out tweets then deciding not to tweet and delete them instead these days. I find it so hard to please everyone and I will get judged no matter what I do. Is like whatever I do/say people always have something to comment about. I can't even use my laptop in peace that I have to resort in hiding under my blanket instead, typing this out using my phone. I find it hard to love people because I can't even love myself. I hate this life, I hate everyone who disappoint me. But what i hate the most? I hate myself. I hate myself for letting people to be able to disappoint me because I expect. And expectations sure leads to disappointment. I'm so done with all these bullshit. And the worst thing is I'm feeling this way on cny's eve when I'm supposed to be feeling happy.

Ship wreck

Desmond group's prototype for the SIP presentation on Wednesday. Damn cool la.

Heavy downpour yesterday (friday), the flood was sooo bad in school. I'm still so kind to accompany desmond smoke tsk tsk such good friend where to find. Luckily i wore slippers wahaha #tgif

Finally meet them after 1week+!!!!!!!! Miss them so much :'(

Reunion dinner tradition with them every year : )

Luo hei!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so done with this hectic and crazy week. Done with the job interview on tuesday, financial management paper + SIP presentation (thankfully my group got distinction for it), port agency paper on thursday which i guess i screwed up pretty badly, statistic lab + port agency paper on friday (yesterday) which i guess i did pretty well for both : ) Met my fav girls at clementi mall after my paper and went grocery shopping. Wah the crowded was super bad at ntuc as today is cny's eve = reunion dinner where most of us chinese will eat steamboat for it. And i got treated a cup of koi because i was craving for it yay ^^

Cabbed to karen's house after that as the stuff was super heavy, prepared the food and had steamboat. Love spending time with all of them, feel so blessed and it it definitely very heartwarming although it has been 2 years since we graduated from secondary school we are still as close as ever :') Love them all. 

It's chinese new year's eve today, happy chinese new year!!!!!!!!! 

Finally gonna take a break and catch up on my running man while i waiting for the reunion dinner at night. Life is good (for now). I'm left with 2 more papers to go for next thur and fri before i'm finally free and hello 2 months holiday!

Miss the boy so much it has been 1 week since i last saw him due to our busy schedules & exams :(

Plain annoying. Just. plain. annoying. please. leave. me. alone.

Buzz buzz

By right i should be studying for my financial management paper which starts at 9am tmrw but i just can't bring myself into believing that i can do it. No matter how many times i've practiced i still feel that i don't understand what the question is asking for. I think i'm really having pre-exams depression and this sucks. I feel so lost hopeless lousy stupid.

Tomorrow (coming in 34 min time) marks the start of my end of semester test (EST), the last exam i'm gonna have for my year 2 in poly. This week is gonna be a hectic week i can feel all the stress coming in already. Had my job interview test this morning (i hope i did well), financial mgmt paper + SIP presentation tmrw, port agency paper on thursday, port management + stats lab paper on friday. 

Can't wait to be done with the week already.

And i'm so thankful for the boy to be here for me. Blessed X

11.31 thought

I don't think i can ever convince myself into believing that there is someone out there who is able to accept me for who i am. I am full of flaws, flaws which maybe no one but only myself will know. But when i realize that someone is really able to accept and love everything that comes along with me (my flaws, insecurities, self-hate, stupidity), i think that's when i start accepting myself and love these flaws more and more each day.

"Embrace your flaws, because these are the things that makes you unique."

This is not a drive-by

H a p p y : )

Went for a date with the boy yesterday (friday 01/02/2013)

Morning called him once i woke up, talked on the phone for awhile before both us went to to prepare and leave house. The first thing we did when we met was to go to The Cathay to buy the tickets for ah boys to men part 2 because it was the 1st official day it starts screening. Crowd was expected. But i'm glad that we manage to get the tix + the threatre wasn't really full maybe because it was still early at 2.35pm. 

Anyway, after getting the tickets at around 1pm, we went over to had our brunch at strictly pancakes!

What-a-spread and strawberry & co.

I realize everytime after i visit strictly pancakes i will have this phobia for pancakes but it will slowly go away after a while and when the phobia is gone i will visit strictly pancakes and have phobia for pancakes again and the cycle just goes on and on....

So after strictly we went back to the cathay to catch our movie and it was so good!!!!!!!! I laughed at almost all the scenes because it was just too funny! Totally worth watching! After the movie we walked around plaza sing and headed to explore around orchard central before training over to vivocity. Went to the keppel bay park (within walking distance from vivo)! The view, ambiance and everything there was sooo nice. The photo below doesn't do the place any justice >:( Lots of ships were there, haha reminds me of the course i'm studying now, makes me feel proud about it actually. There was a superstar virgo there too, super huge and pretty : )

Sat there and talked with the boy....

 And that was when he popped the question after around 2 months of texting! 

Hehe so yup, we are officially together now yay.

 And the way he asked was pretty unique and i find it cute : )

Headed back to vivo for dinner after that. Went for marche!!!!!!!!!!!! It was my first time there and i've heard alot of good reviews about it and am so glad i finally visited it! Ordered the most raved item: rosti! It was actually just sliced potatoes but it was so goooood. And we also ordered mushroom crepe which was another yummy one! They put sauces, mushroom, veggie and some whatnots which is super good. Happy dinner indeed ^^

Headed over to sentosa after that. I love spending time with him like this, getting school work out of our minds for that few hours when we are together. School and exams has been taking up way too much of our time but i'm glad we still manage to find time to meet : )

Presenting to you the world cutest little girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Haha i was such a cute girl back then, yes??? 

Thank you for making me feel so blessed :')