Raindrops

I find myself typing out tweets then deciding not to tweet and delete them instead these days. I find it so hard to please everyone and I will get judged no matter what I do. Is like whatever I do/say people always have something to comment about. I can't even use my laptop in peace that I have to resort in hiding under my blanket instead, typing this out using my phone. I find it hard to love people because I can't even love myself. I hate this life, I hate everyone who disappoint me. But what i hate the most? I hate myself. I hate myself for letting people to be able to disappoint me because I expect. And expectations sure leads to disappointment. I'm so done with all these bullshit. And the worst thing is I'm feeling this way on cny's eve when I'm supposed to be feeling happy.