Come back to me burning red

I keep reminding myself never to put myself in a situation whereby i'll be reliant and dependent on someone again.
I don't wanna go through the same shit heartbreak ever again. Crying till my eyes were so swollen looking so pathetic. No one to blame but myself for being so silly.
I never wanna see myself feeling so sad all over again. It's been so long but it doesn't mean i miss having my heart broken.

But most of all, i do miss receiving good morning texts the first thing i wake up, i do miss having someone i'll called mine, someone who's gonna know me better than i know myself, someone whom is gonna be both my boyfriend and bestfriend, someone who's willing to shit talk with me the whole day texting each other and lazing around, someone who's able to love me at my worst, someone who will make me laugh on days i don't even feel like laughing, someone who is gonna teach me things i've never known, someone who is aware of my insecurities and is always sensitive about it. Someone whom i will love and will love me even more.

Please don't be so good to me. Please.